I’m gonna lose my nerve
So, in much the form, there’s a new relationship in my life. It’s been sudden (to put it lightly) but it has that odd sort of click that I haven’t felt in ages… It’s really lovely. It’s mutual. I don’t know what to do with this sort of reciprocal energy… I feel as if I should always be giving more than him, but that’s not the way it works. It’s so good. This comes with an odd sort of confidence on my part.. I’m more ready to confront past issues feeling so secure in my present. I don’t think to myself "It’s not like it was," because it’s so much better than that.
The swing was a catastrophe and I don’t really want to talk about it. Ugh. I’m just so sick of debating, but I can’t give up the community. I think maybe I’ll sit out this year and judge next year. Sounds like a much better situation for me… Regardless, spending a week in or near Dallas was really lovely save for the car drama.
I saw Juno and Sweeney Todd. They were both fucking incredible movies. Seriously. So ridiculously good. See them now.
It’s an odd sort of morning… Pensive and quiet. The world is changing.