SheFallsSoftly

The same people in your life that usually do nothing but make you happy, well they also have the ability to make you nothing but miserable. Trust is funny in that you can’t just give it during the good times and take it back during the bad ones in order to keep yourself from getting hurt… It’s like we’ve been taking turns the last couple of days where alternately one of us is hurting the other really badly and one of us is trying really hard to fix things. Both of us feel betrayed and used constantly. I find myself wanting to say more but being incapable of explaining in so many different ways.

I don’t really know anymore. I’m sick, I can’t sleep, I’m stuck in this depression that makes my whole body feel like a car that’s frozen up, and I feel like I am always trying so hard and failing.

We went to Novice/JV Nats, got to Semis, first speaker for me third for lindsay. Given how my life has gone since I’ve gotten home, it just doesn’t really seem to matter.

Everything is unstable. Everything is uncomfortable. Everything feels wrong.

This is the sort of emo post insomnia at 3 am reduces me to. (Yes, I’m so emo I even apologize for being emo)

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